Of real hair and lack of eyebrows.
FASSTrack Asia 2014 is coming to an end & this period is especially tiring but so thrilling because it’s the time we push the hardest. When school’s less of academia and competition but more of friendships & communal experiences.

Things I would want to save for

1) high end Nikon DSLR
2) trips around the world
3) meals with loved ones
4) tickets to wonderful performances
5) people I can help
6) causes I support
7) finally, to adopt a child.

Korean

나는 좀 스트레스 받아.

Whether you and I and a few others will renew the world someday remains to be seen.

But within ourselves we must renew it each day, otherwise we just aren’t serious.

Don’t forget that!

— Hermann Hesse

Your jealous pursuit of me.

Oh Lord, You are ever so unchanged. Oh why, was I so disobedient? Why am I such a rebellious child?

Because behind all their backs and in front of all of them, I have no shame because if they did not know, I have this double life, whether in action or in thought.

Yet when I am willing to listen, just for that moment, You pierce through all these defying spirit and spoke to me through Your Word and your songs.

No matter how long I take to listen, You pursue me.

Forever in pursuit of me.
Oh God, oh my God.

Boxing Day in Japan

Note: This was typed on 26 December 2013 and posted 11 June 2014.

Christmas

Good morning.

Typing this on Boxing Day.

In the past week, I’ve watched quite a number of movies on my laptop and on my friend’s laptop. Just to name all of them, I started with Best Man Holiday, then to The Hobbit, then to Extremely Close and Incredibly Loud, on to Frozen and then to Home Alone 2. And I enjoyed all the movies, especially The Hobbit and Extremely Close and Incredibly Loud for the wisdom in the lines, the revelations that accompany the growth of the protagonists. And I enjoyed Frozen so much, not just because it’s animation (I have such a soft spot for animation) but because the soundtrack was amazing and watching it during real winter in Japan, it made me feel so cozy inside, I rewatched it at least five times already! Unlike Olof (sp?), I can’t say I am looking to summer and warm weather because I can already imagine going “eeyuuukkkkk” at the rough smack of Singapore’s weather. I’ll save my ramblings on returning to Singapore when the time comes.

Good morning.

The scene where Martin Freeman, oops no Watson, oops no BILBO BAGGINS meets Gandalf outside the hole and there they go having this awkward conversation about the philosophical meaning of “good morning” or perhaps, just a literary discussion.

(quote) (I will find the GIF of it when my internet gets fixed.)

I enjoyed The Hobbit and I can’t wait to watch the second instalment. It makes me miss the mountains, rolling green hills and unending pastures though, it makes me want to visit Australia and New Zealand when it starts to get cold again next year.

The winter holidays has started here in Japan for me and I guess I’ve done quite a bit… sans the travelling. I had a few Christmas parties, I went and improved my skiing and went about Tokyo to look at winter illuminations which were really not worth the hype.

Haven’t got much planned for the break but I have to slot in some studying for Japanese.

Happy holidays and happy new year, friends and family.

ps. I did realize I have not posted in a long while, something substantial about my past trips to Hakone, Yokohama and random places, especially my thoughts on Festival/Tokyo 2013 will come soon, I promise… Since I should have more time to myself. And, just for the record, I am okay.

 

Natural disasters

Note: This was written in October 2013 and posted June 2014.

We call them a beautiful mess sometimes don’t we? Like oh the sky after the storm is crisp blue, the air that lingers is moist and fresh but today I realized by listening to a conversation that I have almost close to zero knowledge and vocabulary about natural disasters.

I’m not clueless but I realized I really do not think about them at all.

1) I’m from Singapore.

2) I’m not a huge geography geek.

With the typhoon that hit last week and 2 that’s on it’s way. I realized just how weather reports can mean something to people.

While talking about Singapore, people asked me questions like…

"Is it hot all year round?"
"You don’t get winter, do you?"

But what people don’t realize too we really don’t have any natural disasters (and shame on yoinsingaporesn complaining about the orchard road flooding) (I’d like to add I’ve seen the footage about recent flooding due to thunderstorms, perhaps some flooding really sucks but okay, we can do better with some positive spirit)

image

This was the image released by Yahoo! Weather about the earthquake and to think I was still in bed, totally calm during the tremors and going back to sleep after. 

Yet, after the whole incident, I guessed weather reports and such news actually helped one plan their day at the beginning of each day, and they lived expecting something, anticipating something. Singaporeans are blessed, we know it’s either rain or shine and it’s more or less predictable. The level of preparedness the Japanese display was amazing to me, weather women would advise viewers what kind of clothing they should wear, whether they should bring an umbrella out or was it a good day for laundry etc and would even go on to talk about transport if necessary. Singaporeans don’t plan that much in their everyday lives, or at least i didn’t but now, I want to live with that same anticipation in a way.

Defiance

Proverbs 23:22

Listen with respect to the father who raised you,
    and when your mother grows old, don’t neglect her.

- The Message

22 Listen to your father; without him you would not exist. When your mother is old, show her your appreciation.

- Good News Translation 

22 Listen to your father, who gave you life,
    and do not despise your mother when she is old.

- New International Version 

I feel conflicted as I thought about how as young adults, it was logical for many to move out of their nests and to their new homes. Yet, it wasn’t the same here, we live like ‘forever’ with our folks. I’ve been having withdrawal symptoms from enjoying the entire experience of living alone in Japan. Do I enjoy being back home? No, not really, no and I mean it in the most honest way. I don’t see a future in this home, I don’t feel that this is home and I hate this feeling that can’t reconcile with what I want to do and am convicted to do in this household. Can’t I do it from a distance? Can’t I… get out of this?

The verse God led me to, somehow I don’t feel set free or having my burdens lifted. This is not a victory yet but I want to look at this situation with eyes of a conqueror, somehow. 

“Poets do not go mad; but chess-players do. Mathematicians go mad, and cashiers; but creative artists very seldom. I am not, as will be seen, in any sense attacking logic: I only say that this danger does lie in logic, not in imagination.”

Orthodoxy

G.K. Chesterton