Eternal felicity explored with words out of the heart, mind and soul of Karmen. Brushing shoulders and living the Japanese life. I'm the asian, who looks really asian.
It’s getting hard to speak to you some days God. I wish to desire for you, I desire to say full of conviction that “I love you with all of my heart, I love you with all my soul, I love you with all my strength, with all that is within me”, it isn’t that this broken heart has stopped loving you but the cycle, the cycle of not feeling, not loving - not just You but the very people around me, not appreciating the blessings… It isn’t as hard to get up, get out of bed and to live another day, You’ve brought me far away from the place I once was but it doesn’t mean that I have stopped struggling with darkness.
Superficial struggles can come and go, those are easy to deal with.
They are easy to surrender and I am ready to repent and change.
When all I have is a broken spirit that doesn’t feel, won’t You take me Lord?
And just make me whole once more?
I know, to fix my eyes on You, on what the Cross have done for me, is what I can do.